Staring contest

She had big blue eyes
Silver really
Staring at me

I thought,
"It's going to be less fun without you here"
And I blinked

She played with her hair
Red and frazzled
Grabbing a handful and hiding her
Freckled face

I had nothing to say
As usual
When it would have been
the most
advantageous

I wanted her to remember me
We'd only known each other
a short while
Just the summer
maybe half a summer

She was the reason I always showed up
these days
Her lilted dresses
Sometimes floral print

How would she remember me?

We stood outside and another said
it was time to go
And I think it could be the last time
for a while
Maybe forever
It's hard to say what things may happen

She hugged me
I hugged her and really held on because
I knew it might be the last real hug someone
Would give me, as well
I told her,
"It's going to be less fun without you here"
Just like I had said
in my mind

But it already sounded stale and rehearsed because
For me
It was the second time

I took your picture
To remember you by
And I'm writing this to do the same

To remember how I felt when
Summer 2010 had ended

I wish I could have said more
Your skin was soft and cold
I already miss that incidental
contact of brevity

We hugged again and you said
Goodbye if this is the last time
And I said nothing but uttered simple
Agreements

"I dont know when I'll see you again" she said

And then you were gone
And it was another Monday night in Eagle Rock
Nothing to be excited about.