The undeath of old things

So many people
treated you
like dirt
and for a week
they treated you like a person

They don't deserve you

They pretend to be real men
and laugh
at me
because i'm not like them

What arrogance
what hypocrisy

I'm glad you finally stood up to someone
too bad it was to the one person
who consistently stood up
for you

Hold on to the things they gave you
temporarily relieve the pain

clutch the needles
let the anchors
weigh you down
say the words
drink
the wine

And spit on me

The most selfish one

I held you all night long
and it meant nothing to you

How despicable
and embarrassing
I'd just as soon
not have arms

than have them so ignored

I watched you smile
in your sleep
I thought it was cause I was there

The smile was gone in the morning

You told me i'm selfish
it's true
I can be
the most selfish person
on the planet earth

But not when i'm with you
I'm as giving as I can be
despite
what everyone else
whispers in your ear
I am always on your side
and I have been there
for you
not just on the Holiday's
or in the midst of tragedy

No

I Love you so much
I am there for you
when there is the serenity
of ripples
on a pond.

The new word

Why have you decided to leave me now
we were walking side by side
but the two paths we traverse
were so slowly
bending away from each other
i never recognized
it
until now i have to shout
for you to hear me

I could have done things better
I could have come
closer to you
I should have
but it seemed like you were
repulsed
with every step I eventually made

Now you yell to me
"I love you!
but,"
but never used to be apart of it
now its all I hear

BUT
you need to work on some things
BUT
you need to think about me
BUT
you shouldn't have been like that

I'm sorry for those things
but
mostly im sorry
that now that you see me
the way i really am
for the first time
it's not what
you thought you wanted

Now, i'm the toy that's the wrong color
you could still play with me
but I still see
the disappointment
written all over your face

I'm not ready to give up
on us
BUT
if I'm not what you thought you had
could I ever really be?