This Valentine's day post will not be depressing

This Valentine's Day poem will not be depressing
because I'm just not right now
Because I have hope
if not in a girl
in something else
I'll pop in the same films
I watch every Valentine's Day
Remember we talked about them that one night?
I said I loved that part where
it's snowing and he smiles
you said you loved the part where he's crying
I guess that's what I find so fascinating about you
Even sitting on a couch half asleep
you contradict me
with a smile

Tomorrow I'll watch that film and now
when I'm watching him smile
and cry
I'll only think of us talking about it
and not what it's supposed to make me feel.
Remember you said you couldn't watch films like that anymore
because you didn't like having your emotions manipulated?
I bet you had your heart broken
I don't know your past
but I bet there was a time you felt differently.

I wanted to argue that point
but you were right.
I'd much rather feel something while watching a film
because something happened to me
and not because I'm a puppet.

We aren't puppets and that's what makes love and real life so exciting
we aren't puppets and that's why-

That's why
Even though I'm going to be alone
I won't be lonely
this Valentine's Day.