Getting over myself

Honesty
A seven letter word like a lost letter
forwarded to me after years of return to sender

You have only you to blame
-Truth

Its a foreboding message.
At first outrage, then fear
I panic
I read the address

Steven M.
Your House Your St.
Your City, Your State, Your Zip Code

It's mine alright
Well maybe truth is broader than that
Certainly life's difficulties could share responsibility

You have only You to blame
-Truth

Its so simple, no room for negotiation
I can feel my throat start to close
The very air itself is against me
Nobody wants me to succeed
They can't understand how my mind works
But why do I still fail

You have only You to blame
- Truth

Alright I get it, but I'll show you someday
I can beat this thing
Years after my death they'll tout what I did
But even I know there isn't much certainty in resolute gesturing
Despair

I've ruined myself, my life, my future
Destined to be an also ran
I need hope now
But I'm having a hard time getting past the truth

You have only you to blame
-Truth

P.S

You are not alone in this, accept it and move forward
-Humility